Up until recently, I've been loving my time here in Korea. I love the weather, the geography, the fact I can travel and spend almost guilt free. I love most of the people I have met and made some awesome friends. But in a few weeks time some of my close friends will be leaving Korea permanently to go back to Canada. Once it sunk in that this is going to be life for me in the esl world I got a little upset. Tonight I just felt the overwhelming feeling of loneliness.
The funny thing is I'm happy. So, this came so out of the blue for me that I just don't know what to do with it.
It's like it's just sitting there, ebbing away at something in me. Waiting. For what? I don't know!
This week brought some sad news that my friend who was going to come and visit me has decided not to, because my boss can't change my holiday. I was so looking forward to it - I can't help but feel a massive part of my summer holiday has just disappeared and my total excitement for her stay. And with my vacation being a week earlier than anticipated, some of my other good friends will be here. There in lies the fact that we all want different things for that week. I don't want to go into details, not on here - but it made me realise the sacrifices we all have to make for each other. What friendship really is. Doing something for a friend even when it's not exactly what you had planned. Giving up your week abroad, hiking and diving and relaxing for a week of staying home and hoping for a change. Because at the end of the day, it's about being with those people who make you happy, right?
Living in a small town has come with many benefits as well as draw backs. With only 8 foreigners across two towns, all with our own lives and not much to do apart from drinking as the social activity, I think I'm struggling for stimulation. Girly chats. Swimming. Doing things with friends. But then I have some great friends here and in Korea as well. I have time to read, and study and relax like I never was possible!
I think I'm going to have to reassess a few things....
aww Kat!
ReplyDeletehang in there. friendship is amazing and saldy, goodbyes are never easy. There are some friends who come into our lives and then move out of our lives. some vanish completely. Hard. I have known it too, being part of a transient charity as you know. Never easy, with the ebb and flow.
Enjoy those friendships, even if brife, and treasure those friendships which will continue to last a lifetime, despite the distance. sorry to hear about the holiday not working out. funny to think that last year we were watching eurovision and eating sweets and those bangles, eh? good times. love to you xxx
Thank you so much Luci! I can't wait to see you all in December, and I spent some time looking at those silly pics we took last year, made me smile :D love you xxx
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